And now I wait

for a moment,

I was uncertain would ever come to pass.

Totally Wrong

When i said that December would be a better month for blogging. 

I believe, I underestimated the business of the holidays+combined with the launch of VlogCandy. 

I've been swamped! I haven't had any extra time to even read! Aside from my daily devo's, extra reading has been out of the question!

Sweet Moses! I don't even know where my Narnia book is :[

'Sokay being busy... Is actually quite nice.

 

Look, me and my brother David made cookies!

Itsa Christmas Tree!

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Mm. So gewddd.

 

 

Also! Presents I got From Aubrey and John!!!

From John, It's a lil Strawburry with a headband! :D

 

From Aubrey, It's a lil Strawburry Tea kettle! bahaha!

 

Aw, I love Christmas!

Well Folks,

Your vote counted. I went with....

A SOCK PUPPET!!!

We have the same smile.

To be honest, i was going to sell this lil bugger... but over the past couple of days, 

I've become quite attached to it.

Eh, but who knows.

Thank you so much for everyone's vote/input on what type of 

puppet i should make! It really helped. 

A Sock puppet was a good choice!!!

oh, oh, oh, before i forget! the difference in the last picture was...

i had gotten my bangs cut.

So it's kind of a tie between Denise and Wannabealoser

soooo here is your picture :D

<3

Sock Vs. Bag

mm. i love tea.

[also, do you notice any thing different about the picture above?]

[first to figure it out, gets a 'shout out' pic in my next blog] 

[or a free internet high five, you choose]

Tomorrow I am going to the fabric store to pick up some supplies for my puppet challenge on VlogCandy. Which i'm really excited about, but I am a little bit torn.

You see, I have one of two options:

1. Sock Puppet

or

2. Brown Paper Bag Puppet

Help me decide?

WOW!

So aside from the last depressing entry things have been looking up. This week alone i've went from 2300 subscribers to nearly 3000 and my VlogCandy video was featured in Peoples and Vlogs at #2. Not to mention, VlogCandy got asked to be partnered the same day i got rejected. A bitter sweet [pun heh heh] moment, but none the less i was still incredibly excited for VC.

Hopefully in the next two months i'll be able to get partner. No more use of copyrighted material, thats for sure. i mean if i really feel an itch to do a sing-a-long video i'll post it to my response channel to be safe.

And Holy Cow!!! Thank you so much to everyone who suggested a book(s)/author(s) you have no idea how incredibly excited i am to venture over to the local used book store and stock up on some good reading!

Youtube Partnership

Dear Strawburry17,

Thank you for your interest in the YouTube Partner Program. Our goal is to extend invitations to as many partners as we can. Unfortunately we are unable to accept your application at this time. Your account does not contain sufficient original new content that represents the uniqueness of our community.

Oh, well.

November has not

been a good blogging month.

i've had neither the time nor patience to sit down and write something worth reading.

December will be a better month!

i need to hurry up and finish some of the books i'm reading

-Mere Christianity (still)

-Prince Caspian (sooo gewwwd)

-Screwtape Letters (only on the first chapter)

all by C.S. Lewis.. He's my favorite.

For christmas i asked for The Lord Of he Rings series and Harry Potter. Hopefully i can crack into those bad boys by the start of the new year. 

Also! i need to finish the first twighlight book before the movie goes out of theaters! i feel so left out being that i'm the only one in existance who hasnt read the silly book(s) yet!

ahhh, side note, i've never been able to just read one book at a time. i have to have a variety to chose from while reading or else i get bored. except with narnia... those books rock my world. i seriously cant put them down. It will be a sad day when i finish the last book. But hopefully i can stretch it out as long as possible! But yes, if you were wondering, that is why i'm juggling so many books at one time.

Hm, any suggestions on new books to add to my "must read" list?

youtube live

was so awesome.
enough said.
time to sleep.

New Slippers

My dad bought me new slippers.
[as shown in the picture above]

Random. They are so warm and fuzzy. I love them! and my dad for buying them.

Also,

holy freakin crap!!!

YOUTUBE LIVE IS TOMORROW!

I'm so excited i can hardly contain my excitement!
this is just so wonderful!
I really hope I don't turn into a silly n00b and get too afraid to talk to people.

I have no idea what I'm going to be wearing either... hmm.

MUST GO PLAN OUTFIT!

You

There was something in my eye!

I didn't cry i promise.
Oh, silly emotions.

Today, one of the girls i used to mentor threw a bit of sass my way and of course i crumbled in to tears. It sucks seeing people take different paths in life, that used to be so close to you.

and slowly having to watch them turn into a different person, hurts.

But tonight,

As i was crying, i asked God why he'd place people in my life that I'd learn to love so much, if they were only going to be taken away and turn into someone else.

and he told me, because you're the only one who will cry over them. I gave you a burden so you'd never stop believing in who they can be. Your tears are meant for prayers not self pity.

Then i got mad.
Cried some more.
Then understood.

Burdens help me remember its not about me.
Thank you God.

Gasp!

GAH!
This collab will be wonderful!!!

*speaking life*

I'm Trying

To not act off of how i feel and think before i actually do.
But Dear Lord! It is indeed easier said then done.
But well worth it.

Honest, if I'm emotionally driven I'll do things for personal gain and on conditional terms.
I want to be able to do things without being led by my emotions.

Instead, i want to be led by what is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and admirable.

I especially want to make sure I'm selfless and sincere in everything i do

I want to have the confidence in knowing I'm doing what is right without needing a feeling to confirm it is.

I don't want to love because i feel like it
but love, because He loved me first.

Also, I don't want love to be a feeling anymore,
but a state of being.

Neglect

Has it really been 9 days since i've written in this thing


I have an explanation!


ITS MARGO'S FAULT!..

Ok, not really. Book reading and laziness has been getting the best of me.


Also, everyone and their mother is getting married!
My mentor just told me last night she's engaged.
Last month, my good friend got married.
I was browsing Myspace and all my old friends are married and have kids!
What the Moses!!!

Did i miss something?
Jesus help me.


On a lighter note... this is my favorite sweatshirt.

Best Dressed

"The Agenda:"

1. Carve Pumpkin

2. Take Pictures of Pumpkin (above)
3. Bake/Decorate Cookies (Yes, i actually decorated them)

4. Finish sewing our black sheep/white sheep costumes (Came out cuter then the picture can show)

5. Go skate in our costumes (couldn't it was raining)
6. Throw giant pumpkin off of bridge and see it splode. (Undecided)
7. Go to party. (I won best costume!)

8. Lastly, Make a video while doing all of this (kinda, i'll put it up on my TRV vlog)

Overall today was an amazing day. I had a late start due to the extreme lack of sleep BUT had so much fun doing everything. i was quite surprised when they announced that me and my friend (in the picture above) had won "best costume" because honestly we looked quite silly but i guess since our costumes were homemade we had some favor.

A GIANT PUMPKIN

I get to carve this bad boy Saturday!
and i know what you're thinking,
Friday is Halloween. Not Saturday.
I'm fully aware of this but i have reason!
I'm going to a costume party on saturday night with a good friend
and we decided to have a full out amazing saturday of fun filled awesomeness

The Agenda:

1. Carve Pumpkin
2. Take Pictures of Pumpkin
3. Bake/Decorate Cookies
4. Finish sewing our black sheep/white sheep costumes
5. Go skate in our costumes
6. Throw giant pumpkin off of bridge and see it splode.
7. Go to party.
8. Lastly, Make a video while doing all of this

I am so very excited for this weekend!

What if,

Every day was treated like a new beginning?

Where grudges, bitterness, unforgiveness, and worries died the moment your head hit the pillow. And at the time you had awaken to a new morning your mind would be renewed, not lacking knowledge or wisdom from the past, but building on what has been made from prior situations and circumstances.

Each person you'd come into contact with you'd treat like it had been the first time you'd met them and your first impression persona was at the top of it's game. Being kind, loving, unconditional in terms of your friendship in how things are done to show thanks. What if, we did things without having presumptuous intentions of wanting to be thanked for what we had done.

What if, we shared our gifts just out of love and never had the expectations of wanting to be loved in return, because we had the reassurance of knowing we're already loved regardless of what we do.

What if, our confidence was placed in something bigger then ourselves so that our dreams weren't limited to our own fears and insecurities.

What if, believing was reality?

Will you be my Jim Halpert?

And i use Jim only because i just got finished watching the office.
Not that i really want an identical Jim Halpert, but i would enjoy a friend like him.

The reason i pose a question in my title, is this:

I have no problem standing on my own.
No problem, going to a wedding without a date,

A party with no dancing partner,

The movies with no one to cling to,

and I’ve even adjusted to going to the mall and shopping by myself too.

Now, this may sound slightly depressing or fairly stupid but hear me out.

I’m ok with doing these things alone.

I’m sure a few years ago I wouldn’t feel complete if I didn’t have a guy on my arm to do these things with, but I’ve learned to love myself without needing reassurance of who I am by the title of my Status on myspace.

I love who I am and everything that comes along with me. I’m not perfect, which has been the hardest thing to swallow, but I’m human and every mistake I make gets me closer to who I want to be, by learning from it.

Now a couple months ago I would not be able to tell you any of this but now I can confidently say:

I’m Ready to

Trust someone with my heart

Take a chance on love (godliest form)

Hold someone’s hand and not feel convicted

Dance with someone and not care whose looking

Go see a horror movie and cling to someone’s sweatshirt on the scary parts

Buy matching shoes just for the sake of “being cute”

Support someone’s dreams and visions and have them support mine in return

Be an open ear to comfort when comfort is needed

A hug when words won’t do

Bake someone’s favorite cookies just to make them feel special

Compliment someone’s strengths and weaknesses

Talk things out instead of walking out

I’m ready...

Say wha MTV?

So Earlier in the year i got a message from a person named Lauren who said she was with MTV and wanted me to do some type of video review, but i would have to send in some personal information in order for everything to work out. My first initial reaction was that this person was a dirty liar just trying to get my number, so i ignored the message and made nothing of it. Turns out, it really was MTV. The707Juveniles actually followed through with email and wound up on TV.

so i emailed this Lauren person and told her if anything new was going on to let me know and a couple weeks ago i recieved a message telling me about this webcam video show, similar to american idol, and tomorrow i'll be like a member of the audience or something. Honestly, i'm not certain. But i do know one thing i cannot sing! Now i'm terrified. Because, what if they chose me to sing? Imma crap my pants and die right there. GAHHH!

who know's if the show will get picked up but i'm along for the ride. This is quite exciting :D
Maybe.. just maybe... "I'll get discovered"

My trip

It was so nice seeing Whitney. Knowing that she's a real person and not just some "internet friend" who lives next to jlo.



I sometimes question the amount of time i invest into these friendship's via the www. considering the fact, for the most part, that's all they could ever be. I can't call Whitney up some random day and see if she wants to hang out or give Zack a hug whenever i feel like it. Shoot, i cant even ride my sweet razor scooter with Aubrey if i wanted too. I'm limited to the time i can actually spend with the people i truly care about.



So when i was able to see her it made me feel like i hadn't made her up in my mind and there was a nice sense of reassurance knowing that she really did exist. It was a nice feeling. My trip was overall nothing short of amazing. i was awake +30 hours and experienced an amazing amount of inside jokes with two awesome friends and my lil brother. Thank you Jesus for this trip!

Fin

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So i finished reading Looking for Alaska by John Green. I must say he is a very talented writer. The story was well worth reading although i probably wouldn't suggest it to my mentoree's. Just based off of the vulgarity in the content at times. But, that is just my personal opinion/taste in reading material. I am going to pick up a copy of Paper Towns. I'm curious to see how his writing style varies.


I also finished reading The Magicians Nephew by C.S. Lewis (i think i already mentioned this..) and it didn't take me long to finish. It was amazing!!! If you liked the movie The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe you will definitely love this book. It ties in all the missing pieces of how Narnia came about who the white witch is and so on, and so on. I enjoyed it very much.


I enjoyed it so much, i went out and bought the rest of the series in one huge-mungous book! Which i'm reading at the moment. I'm currently on the second book The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe and surprisingly it is still very interesting even though i've already seen the movie. Reading the book is totally different.


Oh and i'm still reading Mere Christianity and The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis. Now, I've made improvement on Mere Christianity. I'm in chapter 4 of book two and its getting easier to comprehend because it's less "cheesecakie" (ha) but still I'm taking my time with this bad boy. i want every chapter to soak in. I'm also learning sooo much, alot of the pages are highlighted and marked up with lil post it's of notes. The Screwtape letters is also very good, but i'll be honest, I've been neglecting it. I'm only on chapter 4. Not that the book isnt worth reading, i just havent gotten around to it as much.



My last "Also"
I'M LEAVING FOR LAGUNA/LA TOMORROW!!! GAH!
[technically saturday morning but it'll be dark outside so it will still feel like friday]