You see, my body is utterly exhausted but my mind never rests. My thoughts keep me up at night, they strangle any possibility of assurance, equanimity, or peace. They walk me through the repetitive occurrences of my day, week, and hidden conflicts within myself. Every conversation, situation, and circumstance is replayed in my mind, only to make me question my own judgment and social abilities. Sometimes, I'm very constructive in my reasoning and encouraging depending on the situation but other times I'm my worst critic. In all honesty, I do very little to try and prevent these these thoughts from strangling my much desired dreams. I only encourage them by giving unnecessary attention to the seeds of doubt, worry, and insecurity that take deep root in my mind and are ultimately responsible for my lack of sleep.
Ah yes, it is not my thoughts that kill my peace, but it is my free will that destroys it.
The battlefield of the Human Mind.
"For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ" -2 Corinthians 10:3-5, NIV