Someday, I'll learn.

Oh, the bitter sweet consequences of irresponsible actions.

Just one of the many life lessons I seem to be learning this year.

I enjoy the fact that I am growing and am able to avoid history repeating itself, but sometimes I wish I could just learn things the normal way (if there is such a thing). Seems as if, I always take the alternative route of needing to learn EVERYTHING the hard way. It’s like my life is under constant reconstruction. I think I know what I’m doing and the minute I get comfortable I find myself flat on my face, having to learn all over again. I guess you could say it keeps me humble. But man does it hurt.

I feel so broken.

Time to dust off what I thought I knew and learn what He’s trying to teach me.

Hmph.

Youtube Quiz Thing

Stole this from AmazingPhil :D

Username:

Strawburry17

Why did you pick it?:

i made it in 7th grade as my AIM sn and it stuck ever since. Also, Strawberry17 was taken.

Who did you first subscribe to?:

TheHill88

Who did you most recently subscribe to?:

It was actually my brother! haha "Dayviideo"

What does your last text message say?:

"Kill em! LOL" -Cory

Do you have any goals?:

More then i could count!

What was the last thing you bought?:

Cranberry juice and a danish.

Describe the person who posted this using one line?:

A amazing half man half lion individual! XD

Are you excited about anything?:

Oh, yes. I'm excited to be breathing! eap eap!

Do you have a crush?

Something like that.

Have you ever been drunk?:

I have many a times, in my past. 2 years sober! WOOP!

Who was the first Youtube you met in real life?:

RockinBlueWit<3

Who was the last Youtuber you met in real life?:

Zacharyxbinks<3

Do you pefer day or night?:

I love the day but often times sleep through it :/

Are you a member of any collab channels?:

VLOGCANDY

Do you have a secret account?:

Strawburry17Responds

Do you believe in God?:

With all my heart.

Which youtuber do you talk to the most?:

Tie between Nanalew and Zacharyxbinks

Which Youtuber do you think makes the best videos?:

MichaelAranda's are pretty great.

You may only subscrie to 5 channels and only watch their videos. who will they be?:

AHHH! this is hard :/
Zacharyxbinks
DudeneedaEaseonup
HurricaneAubrey
AndrewBravener
NanarockinbluelewWit.

Are you in a relationship?:

No, I am not.

would you date a smoker?:

No.

Where is your favourite place?:

Yosemite, CA. I would get married there if i could.

Are you a happy person?:

Oh yes! Very.

Would you kiss the person who posted this?:

The next man i kiss will be after the words "I do." Sorry Phil :P

What would you take to the desert island? :

A Harpoon (incase the whale try and kill me) A White Volley Ball to be my "Wilson", My Bible, Plenty of food and water, a friend or two maybe, maybe i'll just bring my house, yes?

Do you prefer sun or snow?:

I'm from California. Sun is a MUST!

Who did you last speak to on the phone?

Whitney (RockinBlueWit)

Who did you last text?:

My brother

What are you doing tommorow?:

Working then I have leadership :]

What is your favourite flavour of potato chips?:

BBQ!

What size are your feet?:

8 :]

What do you want?:

It would be nice to have a Valentine.

What do you need?:

More of God.

What do you remember?:

EVERYTHING!

What do you wish?:

I want a pet dragon like in Eragon.

Confess:

Your feet smell.

Honesty. Do you want people to anonymously post what they REALLY Think of you ?

My confidence does not fall into anonymous comments of others, but if you feel willed to post, i wouldnt stop you.

Yo, Monday!

So i got a new hair cut...

I don't know if i like em... yet.
Oh, well. HEY GUESS WHAT TODAY'S MONDAY! Woo!
RIP weekend. I barely knew thee.
So, today i will be filming. I'm hoping to have my video finished and edited by tomorrow morning. It's a cute one so i wanna take time and make it PERFECT! muahaha! also i'll be on blogtv tomorrow! i'm thinking around 4ish.
That's not certain, but i'm thinking somewhere around there.Oh, i tried wishing everyone a happy monday but i had to write it out backwards on account of isight being a STUPID!

But anywho have a great week <3

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OH YEAH!!!

21 days

"Here is my heart. Here is my heart. Here is my heart."
"You can have it all"

Goodbye

These are my last Goodbyes for all of 2008.

Sadly, I'm a bit late [since its already '09]
but I've seemed to drag a few things from the past year with me to the present.
So, I'm saying goodbye to what was and holding onto the memories of what were, but furthermore, I'm choosing to grow, move on, and start fresh.

Goodbye, Inconsistency, in all areas of my life.
Goodbye, Depression, induced by my home life and isolated self pity.
Goodbye, Wasted tears over a dead friendship, I managed to hold onto for yet another year.
Goodbye, Anger, caused by who you haven't been in my life. I've already forgiven you.
Goodbye, Jealousy, I never really liked how you made me act anyways.
Goodbye, Phantom Pain in my heart. I knew why the pain existed but I also knew what had already been mended.
Goodbye, You, I will never understand what made things so different, but it was. A part of my heart wishes it wasn't, but a bigger piece of my heart knew more then that little piece could fathom. I don't imagine things ever being the same, and that's why I'm saying goodbye.
I know You differently now.

Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye.
.2008.

Nostalgia

In the past,
I had struggled with the thought of missing someone i had only known from the confines of my computer screen, but now I am in a position where i struggle with the thought of missing someone who has been far more then just a face behind a screen.

He is Someone I have had the honor of being able to get lost with on the endless one way streets of San Francisco. Someone, who i got past the third level of a first person shooter game at the local putt putt, not to mention made fun of me the whole time for the way I held the silly plastic gun. Oh, this someone I could honestly say has changed who I am completely for all of 2008.

Again, This someone I'm missing will never be just a person, but will always be one of my dearest friends.

Also,

This is something i could never escape or deny,
but Strawburry17 will always be madly in love with Mr. Zacharyxbinks, but as far as Meghan and Zachary goes, well, I would only hope a strong friendship would remain in their permanent future for ever and ever <3