New Slippers

My dad bought me new slippers.
[as shown in the picture above]

Random. They are so warm and fuzzy. I love them! and my dad for buying them.

Also,

holy freakin crap!!!

YOUTUBE LIVE IS TOMORROW!

I'm so excited i can hardly contain my excitement!
this is just so wonderful!
I really hope I don't turn into a silly n00b and get too afraid to talk to people.

I have no idea what I'm going to be wearing either... hmm.

MUST GO PLAN OUTFIT!

You

There was something in my eye!

I didn't cry i promise.
Oh, silly emotions.

Today, one of the girls i used to mentor threw a bit of sass my way and of course i crumbled in to tears. It sucks seeing people take different paths in life, that used to be so close to you.

and slowly having to watch them turn into a different person, hurts.

But tonight,

As i was crying, i asked God why he'd place people in my life that I'd learn to love so much, if they were only going to be taken away and turn into someone else.

and he told me, because you're the only one who will cry over them. I gave you a burden so you'd never stop believing in who they can be. Your tears are meant for prayers not self pity.

Then i got mad.
Cried some more.
Then understood.

Burdens help me remember its not about me.
Thank you God.

Gasp!

GAH!
This collab will be wonderful!!!

*speaking life*

I'm Trying

To not act off of how i feel and think before i actually do.
But Dear Lord! It is indeed easier said then done.
But well worth it.

Honest, if I'm emotionally driven I'll do things for personal gain and on conditional terms.
I want to be able to do things without being led by my emotions.

Instead, i want to be led by what is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and admirable.

I especially want to make sure I'm selfless and sincere in everything i do

I want to have the confidence in knowing I'm doing what is right without needing a feeling to confirm it is.

I don't want to love because i feel like it
but love, because He loved me first.

Also, I don't want love to be a feeling anymore,
but a state of being.

Neglect

Has it really been 9 days since i've written in this thing


I have an explanation!


ITS MARGO'S FAULT!..

Ok, not really. Book reading and laziness has been getting the best of me.


Also, everyone and their mother is getting married!
My mentor just told me last night she's engaged.
Last month, my good friend got married.
I was browsing Myspace and all my old friends are married and have kids!
What the Moses!!!

Did i miss something?
Jesus help me.


On a lighter note... this is my favorite sweatshirt.

Best Dressed

"The Agenda:"

1. Carve Pumpkin

2. Take Pictures of Pumpkin (above)
3. Bake/Decorate Cookies (Yes, i actually decorated them)

4. Finish sewing our black sheep/white sheep costumes (Came out cuter then the picture can show)

5. Go skate in our costumes (couldn't it was raining)
6. Throw giant pumpkin off of bridge and see it splode. (Undecided)
7. Go to party. (I won best costume!)

8. Lastly, Make a video while doing all of this (kinda, i'll put it up on my TRV vlog)

Overall today was an amazing day. I had a late start due to the extreme lack of sleep BUT had so much fun doing everything. i was quite surprised when they announced that me and my friend (in the picture above) had won "best costume" because honestly we looked quite silly but i guess since our costumes were homemade we had some favor.