Friday, September 25, 2009


Last year, i was able to write freely. I don't know what changed. But i do know i feel better when i'm not the only one inside my head. If that makes sense.

To be honest, putting how i feel in words is sometimes a struggle because it can't always justify how i feel. I don't strive for eloquence (obvious) but just honesty.

My heart. Whether i'm talking about a book, my hair, a video, or my life. It's honest.
I think i'll start writing more.

Thank you for the encouraging comments, emails, and tweets in regards to my last post. There are some things i keep private. Not for always. But for now. Vague. i know.

I guess to say the least, things are better now. More so then i could have even imagined. My emotions really took me for a ride. I let them of course. But Obedience beyond feeling has truly set me free.

p.s. C.S. Lewis is the man.

"Some people feel guilty about their anxieties and regard them as a defect of faith but they are afflictions, not sins. Like all afflictions, they are, if we can so take them, our share in the passion of Christ." C.S. Lewis


Matt said...

Amen, Meghan. I'm glad to know you're working through whatever it is you're going through. We all have doubts and anxieties. That doesn't mean we're bad Christians. In fact, acknowledging those doubts makes us honest Christians. And, of course, Christ knew we would have these doubts/anxieties, and so he gave us fellowship, and he gave us Biblical reminders that we sometimes need to see/hear.

Don't feel that you have to tell anyone what's really going on with you. There's no shame in not spreading out your life on a platter for all to see. Personal is ok. We ought to be somewhat transparent with our intentions, but that doesn't mean that boundaries have to be invisible or non-existent.

Anonymous said...

i most definitely agree with matt. well said. love you meghan. i'm praying for you.


Anonymous said...

Honesty is what everything always comes down to. Words never feel right if you put down what you know isn't truth.

That's what makes it hard for me to write 'freely' many times. The lack of truth in emotion. And becoming less direct with words is something i've experienced in writing (and blogging). It's natural to keep privacy; especially when concerning ones' emotions.

You don't have to tell everyone everything. Just write what gets the meaning across enough yet doesn't make you feel uncomfortable posting.

sharplike said...

Whoa, I like Trusting. :]

p.s I'm happy you're better. God bless, may God have mercy on your soul.


sirpoins said...

Always stay true to what you believe in and don't compromise those ideals for anyone. Sometimes letting the world know how you feel is quite relieving. I'm glad that you found that out..

Keep the faith :)

MarcusDS said...

I agree with Matt..acknowledging the doubts does us realize how far along we have come, and how far more we have to go..=)after all, Jesus did say it was the meek who would inherit the earth rite?XD

enjoying reading ur posts..insightful, humbling and convicting..GB=)

Reesa said...

I am not a very religious person, but I think if you can look to your faith in times of hardship and it inspires you, comforts you, and offers you guidance then you are very blessed. "Just keep truckin' on." -Grateful Dead

king said...

Some things are between you and G-d. If G-d communicates something to you, most likely it's even between you and G-d and not for you to communicate to everyone else on behalf of G-d. There are some knowings about life that are only transmitted directly and the person has to be ready to receive that knowledge. Only G-d is able to judge when that person is ready.

When you share your goals, dreams and creativity, you also open yourself up to a lot of negativity. Most are content that everyone is in the same place they are in and choosing love, being a leader, taking action that makes you different from them may bring their envy, jealousy and even hatred to you.

So often it's best to keep it between you yourself and G-d and keep having constant conversation with G-d!

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