Trusting.

Last year, i was able to write freely. I don't know what changed. But i do know i feel better when i'm not the only one inside my head. If that makes sense.

To be honest, putting how i feel in words is sometimes a struggle because it can't always justify how i feel. I don't strive for eloquence (obvious) but just honesty.

My heart. Whether i'm talking about a book, my hair, a video, or my life. It's honest.

I think i'll start writing more.

Thank you for the encouraging comments, emails, and tweets in regards to my last post. There are some things i keep private. Not for always. But for now. Vague. i know.

I guess to say the least, things are better now. More so then i could have even imagined. My emotions really took me for a ride. I let them of course. But Obedience beyond feeling has truly set me free.

p.s. C.S. Lewis is the man.

"Some people feel guilty about their anxieties and regard them as a defect of faith but they are afflictions, not sins. Like all afflictions, they are, if we can so take them, our share in the passion of Christ." C.S. Lewis

Listen

I just want to hear Gods voice.

and know.

that I know.

that I know.

His word for my life.

I need to make a decision. 

Based on the plans He has for me.

I wouldn't care what anyone else said.

IF I knew what He said.

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. ¹³ If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.

Jermiah 29:11-12 NLT

Trying to Please

The displeased.

I'm only human.

Two very different worlds with equally high expectations.

The thought of trying to please everyone 

At the cost of losing myself makes me sick inside.

I need to stop taking things so personal.

There's more to words then the pain that lingers.

I just need understanding.

Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the Lord with all your heart;

 do not depend on your own understanding.