Saturday, August 8, 2009

A Tarnished Condition

Induced by a contaminated ambition.

There's a taste in my mouth that's kept me from eating
not physical food but the nourishment I'm needing

To breathe
To grow
To overcome
To know

That what was inflicted
Could not be predicted.

But redeemed and made right
By his glory and light.

My heart burns for justice
for closure 
for healing
for something more then a feeling

i can't make right what i cannot control
but choose to let go of the pieces i hold
in my hands 
they are bleeding
from constantly needing 
something more.

it's too heavy to bare 

this Bitterness.


Lord, help me.

"Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it" Psalm 81:10

71 comments:

Matt said...

I like to call your blog, "Reflections of an Honest Christian". Too many people try to hide those dark thoughts. Letting go is one of the hardest things. Forgiveness requires a lifetime of work.


Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?" Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times. - Matthew 18:21-22
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But there is one thing I am sure of, Meghan. God has changed you, and He will continue to work on you. He will make you a better person, and He will make you stronger. Have faith in that.


And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns. - Philippians 1:6

bloggeranonymous said...

Thank you for this!

Alex said...

WOW
honestly i dont believe in all that but that was really ... idk
im speechless i was just reading this guy matt comment ...and wow better stay quiet or i will say something stupid !!!
well anyway ... ur poem (i think) its really artistic ... :] i luv art ... any kind !!

pfff even though im just a kid (15)i luv reading thing like that (not books and those things i dont really like to read, but blogs !! yey)

well enough !! gotta go :]

good luck , very berry nice text

i loved it

Sanchez said...

I love your blog.

It's very amazing.

Anonymously Me said...

I love your honesty. God will help you overcome whatever it is you're going through.

Emily said...

I just stumbled across this and it's beautiful.
It's what I've been working on doing myself for a few weeks now.
Trying to find my way out of worldly hurt and back into the grace and bliss of God's embrace.

This was incredible!

Bridget. said...

That was very honest and even more beautiful.

BocaDelcielo said...

To grow... that's the most important

Danny said...

<3

That is one of my favorite Bible verses!

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Insert Name Here said...

this is great poetry :)

MarcusDS said...

Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Psa 34:8

U dun knw me =) nice Vanilla Twilight remake tho XD..

MarcusDS

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