Moving

I’m not familiar with the feeling or seeing everything in boxes. It’s so weird. If i ever moved away from my family i’d be so heart broken.

Not to say that I won’t. Cause eventually i will... I am 23 so i’m sure moving away at one point in time in my life will be a healthy grown up decision. Honestly, when i was 16 i couldn't wait for day i was able to move out on my house. But i was definitely in a different place then as far as my heart and mindset towards family. Just this past year has my family been able to truly get past all of our differences and love each other. It’s a great feeling especially being that my mom was sick for so long I had forgotten what it was like to have a mom. That being said you may understand my “heart broken” dilemma.

Any who! I’ve yet to unpack. Maybe my room will stay cleaner if i just leave everything in boxes. Although i’m missing my favorite BDG skinny jeans... I should probably unpack. Currently only 5 items in my closet are hung up and i don’t even remember the last time i wore them. 4 out the 5 are long sleeved shirts i keep as under sleeves for when i’ll eventually go snowboarding again. Which reminds me did that obama law really pass? Cause if i can get insurance i definitely want to start skating/snowboarding again. I couldn’t even begin to describe how much i miss skateboarding.

I used to wake up at 5:30am head to Ripon skatepark and wouldn't leave until it was too dark to see the park. That was like my saturday ritual back in the day. I had the sweetest board set up too. I’ve never been too picky with my decks but i really like size 8’s for when i’m carving and if you’ve ever been to ripon skatepark you’d know the transitions are some of the smoothest in cali. I rode pink krux that had been broken in so they were as smooth as the bowls i was carving. China bones bearings and 53mm spitfire wheels. I miss that board. It was stolen a while back at a church gathering in a park. Hopefully the person who took it got as much use out of it as i did. What the heck is up with me and stuff getting stolen?! I need to attach velcro strips to everything i take outside of my house. so that if anything is ever taken i’ll hear that annoying detaching sound and be able to apprehend the thief with my fine set of ninja skills.

hmm... i should learn karate. Or what ever it is that white hair asian dude taught Beatrix Kiddo in Kill Bill. *adds to list of things to do before i die*

There are somethings that give me the feeling of being absolutely free and detached from everything. I don’t do these things as often as i’d like. The 3 being Worship, Skateboarding, and hiking in yosemite. Sounds crazy but i feel at home when i’m doing any of those 3 things. not all at once. but if that were possible THATD BE AWESOME! I digress, I get a peace knowing everything is gonna be alright maybe more so the reassurance when i’m worshiping. Being able to talk with god at any given moment makes him feel less distant and when i worship him i feel closer to his heart. When i’m skating its the closest i feel to flying. Gravity always makes sure i don’t leave the ground for too long but when i’m able to be in the air, even if its only a split second, i’m flying. When i’m hiking in yosemite i’m inspired by every beautiful thing around me. Reassured that if i’m captivated by what God made so effortlessly how much more time he put into making me, his daughter, imperfections and insecurities are written off when i’m reminded of those things. Like i said. it just feels like home.

You would think film would be under that feeling of being home but its way different from that. When i think of an idea for a video there is something that takes me over. I seriously can’t think of anything else until i see that vision come to pass. It’s like my mind goes crazy until i’m able to see in front of me what i could only see when my were eyes closed. Its a passion of mine. Definitely an artistic outlet. I’ve also always enjoyed making others laugh. My minds all over the place right now. I just haven't written anything in a while and wanted to. I think i’ll try going back to bed now. I technically went to bed at 9 something but no matter what i do i always wake up at 2am. My body is weird. Possibly as weird as my inconsistent sleeping patterns.

KIRK OUT

Be in MY NEW MUSIC VIDEO!

Hey Everyone!

I KNOW WHAT YOURE THINKING! "Holy crap shoot Meghan this is a long script!" I promise it'll only take you 10 minutes tops to film and the editing only took me 5 including rendering!

any who!

This is my first ever collab video with the Burries! I'm way excited to be able to create somin awesome with you guys! The song were going to be using is I Wouldn't Mind By He Is We. If you dont have the song yet get it for free here: http://bit.ly/dupni8

FILE TYPE:
Render your video to one of the five file types:
Video Files: .mov, .avi, .mts, .mp4, and mpg.

No .wmv's or .flv's. Sorry :/ This is a big project and i'd spend the majority of my time converting if everyone sent me wmv's/flv's.

ASPECT RATIO:
Output needs to be 720x480 or higher [720x1280, 1080x1440, or 1080x1920]. This is a standard export size. Just make sure before you render the video it'll be this size.

If you don't know how to do this you can google "16:9 render settings [insert your editing software]" and some good sources will show you how!

Send clips Via this website:
http://www.yousendit.com
OR
http://www.megaupload.com

SEND TO THIS EMAIL:
imaburry@gmail.com

OK! Now that thats out of the way lets get to the fun part!

I'll be lip dubbing to the song and creatively incorporating your videos in them as well.

SHOT:

my shot set up:

Have a solid background or wall behind you for filming or a really pretty place outside around grass and trees. I usually just hang up a sheet or small blanket! When filming the camera should be 3 feet away from you [so youre awesome face will be up close and awesome looking for the video] and position yourself in the center of the frame like this:

LOOK I'M IN THE MIDDLE!

LIGHTING:

my shot set up:

any type of lighting source you have would be good if youre filming indoors. A desk lamp, flood light, lamp, whatever you got. Try and make sure your face is evenly lit so theres no hard shadows. Like this:

SHADOWY LIGHTING

NOT SHADOWY.

SCRIPT:

Heres the downloadable script for when youre filming!:

http://www.box.net/shared/9shkv7arhq

Theres 10 different scenes! Theyre super easy and i have examples to give you a general idea :) I uploaded the videos individually for example purposes but please send me all of them together in one rendered file! :)

Color code:
lyrics
lip singing
actions/acting

-Everyone-
1. 7 seconds of you staring at the camera. you can smile or just be natural. stay in one place though without hand movements. (this will feel like forever)

2. Merrily we fall -6 seconds of you swaying back and forth then falling out of the shot.

***NOTE SCENE 3 AND 4 ARE IN ONE CLIP!***


3. We're not going anywhere until we freeze-6 seconds of you pretending youre humming or singing as if notes were coming out of your mouth then dramatically freezing for two seconds before lip singing the next two lines immediately after. you can stare at the camera when you freeze or pose how ever you'd like.

4. I'm not afraid anymore
-lip sing these two lines
I'm not afraid.


5. But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.-look to your left for 4 seconds and smile as if there was someone next to you. look to your right for 4 seconds and smile as if there was someone next to you.

6. You came and you took this heart
-7 seconds of an up hand heart.

7. Every word you write and sing is so warm to me.
-10 seconds of you holding up a hand drawn sun in marker (so it shows up!)

8. Tell me everyday 
I get to wake up to that smile.
-10 seconds of you smiling into the camera

9. I wouldn't mind it at all.
-lip sing these next two lines while taking glances to your left.
I wouldn't mind it at all.


10. 10 seconds- hold up your screen name on your hand, shirt, or a piece of paper (be as creative as you want and be as "goofy" as you'd life for this clip. it'll be at the end of the video giving you credit for helping make it. :)

WOOO!!! THATS IT! I know it seems like a lot but hopefully the pictures and video clip examples help!

DEADLINE:
SUNDAY JUNE 13, 2010
10PM PST

I know the deadline seems soon but these are pretty easy shots to film! Don't worry about your shots being perfect or what other people will think about them. This is gonna be such a neat video and my first collab with you! So film film film! and send your clips in asap! :)

-Meghan

Smile

The words I wanna say

Linger at the tip of my tongue

And leave a taste in my mouth

Of bitter sweet nostalgia

Maybe it's because you take my breath away 

Along with all the words I've wanted to say

You

Make

Me

Smile

"A smile is the light in the window of your face that tells people you're at home" 

I fear

that I'm afraid of feeling anything outside of what I've known for the past 3 years.

3 years of my life

I've kept friendships minimal

to avoid feeling what it was like to lose someone I cared about

I've avoided social gatherings

to escape the feeling of being alone in a crowded room.

I've avoided relationships

because I remember how bad it hurts to give my heart away.

When any of these feelings start to become more of a possibility

I lose my grip, my footing, and my confidence in my complacency.

I'm afraid to feel more than I have felt.

I don't want to hurt

but I'd rather feel something than nothing at all.

I believe there's more to grasp than the grip.

and I can't escape or avoid how I feel right now.

I blame my heart.

"The purpose of my instruction is that all believers would be filled with love that comes from a pure heart, a clear conscience, and genuine faith" -1 Timothy 1:5

My Purpose

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

-Philippians 4:6

I worry about what i cant control and desperately try and control what i can.

But i cant.

It's like worrying if the sun will rise tomorrow.

even in a storm.

it shines above the clouds
rises and falls.

But not because of my worry.

but because of it's purpose.

i'm not the sun.
i'm not the one who controls it.
i'm just the one who benefits from its purpose.

My worrying is a distraction from my purpose.

Sometimes, i feel like i'm walking with out seeing

Breathing without believing
each breath that i take
wont be my last
chance to change

who I am.

I walk blindly in a comatose state of complacency.

My vision is impaired by the hands that I place in front of each eye
preventing them from seeing today's challenge and tomorrows victory.

"Light a way, on my love.
Light a way, from above.
Shine it down, lead me home,
Back to him."

Am I merely living without truly grasping the life that's in front of me?

Psalm 119:174-176

Love

If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (The Message)

I want to love like this.